Matthaeus

2009-07-19T04:47:00.001-07:00

ฉันพลาดคุณมาก.

2009-06-28T05:10:00.000-07:00

I'm vexed.
Give me a break.

2009-06-15T23:07:00.000-07:00

At least I know what's on your mind
It's alright, I wouldn't care
Follow my path and everything will be fine
:)

2009-06-14T01:36:00.000-07:00

What about me?
What about you?
What about him?
What about them?

I wouldn't care
I wouldn't know
It's just about now
What about future?

Naive isn't the problem
Reality is the fact
Wouldn't last
What's on my mind
Nobody knows, not even myself
Follow me, follow you and follow them
Till I've fallen
Maybe it's a trap
Maybe we're all trapped
Supersonic till the end
We're all confused
Confused in this circle

It's just parallel lines that never met
Forever unable

What's the best for me?
Beats me too
What's the best for you?
You definitely knows

Contradicting me
Contradicting you
Care for me
Care for you
Care for them all
Maybe it's just your scope
Maybe it's all real
Maybe it's not
Only me
Something I've yet to find
Something I've yet to know
I'm trying my best
Showing what's best
Please understand

2009-05-31T00:01:00.001-07:00

It's been some time since I've blog.
Many things happened and changed my life.
Matters that are rather simple to me but complex to others
I didn't noticed it till yesterday.
I'm sorry but still I have to make a choice
A right choice
But it wasn't you, It's them
You're great a very nice person even though sometimes you do disappoints me a little
Sharing most of my time with you wasn't a waste
Because I never feel like this for quite a long long time
The feeling that I've nearly forgotten
You brought it back for me therefore I thank you for what you've done for me
Everything single little thing
I guess it's time for me to let you go even though you're still hanging on

Pom mai zao chu, jing jing!

It's right, either you hurt them or they will hurt you.
I can't take care of you no matter how much I really wants, I still couldn't
Maybe I shouldn't have entered that circle of entertainment
Everything is contradicting in there
For them to say for us to believe or sexpose
Whichever way you guys want
It's still about money
Motive is money
Do practically anything for money
I really pity them but I can only watch and see
Sighs!

Kun rak pom jing jing mak mak? Cheu mai? Pom mai roo

2009-04-05T02:12:00.000-07:00

Hey. It's been long since I've blog.
Just a short post for now because I can't find any time to post.
Life is boring for the past few weeks because I'm stuck in camp.
How I wish I could be back out and have fun.
Always awaits Friday night every week till my next block leave in May.
It's been 5 months already, 19 more months to go.
If only I have a remote control like the movie "Click"
Then I can auto-pilot myself for the whole of my army life.
But too bad I don't have.
Gonna book in later so I'll catch up with you guys here if I have the time.
Take care guys!

2009-03-08T03:41:00.000-07:00

Hey Guys! Time flies pretty fast because in a blink of an eye it's March already. In 1 week time, I'm no longer a recruit. But this week ain't easy. I have my 24km road march and IPPT but at least field camp is over.

Talking about field camp, it's tough but somehow fun if you think positively. On the first day, I got my tent flooded with puddles of water. I tried to dig out the water in the heavy rain but it just don't seem to work. What an unlucky day. At first I was delighted that it's going to rain but when it really rained, I starts to miss glaring hot sun. The sun wasn't on our side as the rain carry on and on till dusk. During the night when it's time to rest, heavy rain approach us again but this time we were all evacuated to build-up area where there is shelter there. It's still the same whether I'm under the shelter or out in the field because I'm still drenched. My boots and uniform were all wet, imagine how cold it was during that point of time. I'm more tired than cold so I felt asleep but I still how duty to fufill during midnight and blah blah blah field camp ended.......

Everyday seems tiring in field camp, thank god it's over. =)

2009-02-08T01:47:00.000-08:00

Live Firing On Monday And Tuesday!
First time in my life I get to fire a real rifle.
BANG! HAHA!

Yup I'm booking in later, Cya guys on saturday!

2009-01-27T01:48:00.000-08:00

Shit. I still can't bring myself to facing the fact that I'm actually booking in tonight. Every time I've booked-out I adapt to civilian life easily but once I'm about to book-in I feel reluctant. Why is adapting to army life so difficult? I still can't tune myself back and forth. This is torturing me, feeling so stress now. I'm afraid they might burn my weekends. I don't want this to happen so I trained hard but still I know I won't reached their standards but why? I still put in effort. Please allow all my book-outs to proceed smoothly.

Happy Chinese New Year still.

2009-01-11T01:35:00.000-08:00

Life's tough in camp, I guess I'm still not used to army life yet.
Still not use to waking up early in the morning before 5.30am.
I'm already awake by then but the lesson I'm having simply turns me off.
Every Sunday during noon time I feel sleepy and restless because I know it's another 5 days in and 2 days out.
Life in camp is boring during PTP. I wonder how will BMT be?
Plus every book-out I'm down with flu except for the first
If there's a choice, I rather go to school then camp.
Huge difference between choices
But every man have to go through what I'm going through now, NS.
So I just suffer first and continue my journey of life later.
Sighs, miss my good old life.
But humans grow up sooner or later
What I'm going through is the process of growing up and becoming a better man
Things will be good after 9 weeks, even better after 2 years
It's hard to adapt by sleeping early on weekdays and late in weekends
Totally shag
Miss driving lesson on my birthday due to overslept
56 bucks gone during my sleeps, how sad
Well, afterall there's no remedial driving lesson whereas there's remedial training in camp on a bloody Saturday
How sad it is to book-out on Saturday afternoon.
Now I understands why as each year past, more and more NSF died during training.
Because they are all afraid of RT (Remedial Training)
Weekends is precious to NSF

2008-12-27T01:22:00.000-08:00

HELLO Peoples!
It's been awhile since I've blog
Because I'm in Camp serving my NS
Nothing much about army life
It's just sleep early and wake up early
Training, Lectures, Sir, Sargent, Recruits and Officers
Time files fast in camp
As in seriously but stuff we do is boring
Luckily I have great section mates
Cool dudes =)

There's something I recite everyday for few times
SAF 7 Core Values
Loyalty to country
Leadership
Discipline
Professionalism
Fighting spirit
Enthics
Care for soldiers

I'm having flu for days
Like FUCK I'm booking in tomorrow
I'll die in camp if I'm sick
The sun is freaking hot which makes me fucking tanned therefore lesser chance for me to recover. SHIT!
I'm not a civilian for the next 2 years
Please not another escape of Mas Selamat during this 2 years
Let's pass this 2 years with peace and harmony

Nothing much, shall end here now
Next post during New Year =)

2008-11-16T00:30:00.000-08:00

It's been long since I've blog.
Because my life is boring
It's like a routine
I'm sure you guys won't want to read boring stuff

It's been long since TenTons reunite!
Instead of collecting newspaper
We are having fun - If your definition of fun is mass jumping inside an underpass sweating like pigs
Was like having P.E lesson
Took about 60 pictures
Good thing is, we had nice pictures - Yeah! *Claps*
Bad thing is, we had many unglam pictures compared to the nice - BOOHOO!
It's time for the picture to portray.

First we have the JUMPSHOT!

Now awaits the SHOT OF THAT DAY!

Keep our eyes towards the left of this picture.
It's JEREMY n KAI PENG
Such a loving couple
They just can't resist their temptation
And they did it in the public and got caught in camera
I didn't know guys can get pleasure by this action.

Meet up soon again!
Before my enlistment date
I know you guys are busy
But make some time for me please

*Awaits the next meet-up*

2008-10-18T21:52:00.000-07:00

ELVA 萧亚轩！

2008-09-13T06:43:00.000-07:00

We need the MAGIC of CRISTIANO RONALDO!!!
Awaits the magic this month
September

Glory Glory MAN UNITED~
WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS
NO TIME FOR LOSERS
CAUSE WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS
OF EPL!!!!

18 times EPL Champion(1 short of Liverpool)

Random

2008-09-11T14:42:00.000-07:00

It's been 2 weeks since I've last post
Decided to post to keep my blog active
Quit NYNY for a week
Relaxing and slacking at home
Life is good
Haha!

During times that I'm sick of online games and had nothing to do
It becomes kinda boring, doing nothing at home
Watched 2 dramas that I always want to but had no time
Because of work

命中注定我爱你 and 美味关系 that I've watched halfway last time
篮球火 is watching in progress
Love watching dramas
Any nice HK or TW drama to introduce?

Oh forgot to say why quit NYNY
Because I think the management sucks
Big time
They don't treat workers equally
To them full-timers are more important
Part-timers are rubbish
We are just their dogs
Can't believe I worked so hard
And got nothing in return
Everything full-timer first
Part-timers wait for your turn
3 months of hardwork led to nothing
No matter how hard I've worked
They won't appreciate it
Still say we're monitoring you don't think we don't know whether you guys working a not
I'm bloody demoralized
Therefore my attitude towards work turns bad
Felt that I'm there just to be used by them with such low pay for your info
Want to know how much?

Go to Lot 1, walk in and approach Julius
We provide GOOD PAY
We provide GOOD INCENTIVES
We provide GOOD MEALS

Should change and say

Go to Lot 1, walk in and approach blind, lousy, treats workers like shit and will scream the hell out of ya for some stupid reasons, Julius
We provide PATHETIC PAY
We DON'T KNOW WHAT IS INCENTIVES
We SOMETIMES PROVIDE GOOD MEALS BUT MOST OF THE TIME, NOT VERY GOOD

When problems and conflicts arrived
They talk to us and question us
Keeping silence was what i've always did
I won't say anything even though I had plenty
What's the point?
I'm just a part-timer
It won't benefit me even if what I say make senses

I felt that everything is unfair
Managers are blind
Outlet manager like shit
Assistant general manager not bad
Supervisor is reasonable
They only want to cover their backside
To Julius: "Eat my shit and fuck off!"
And I've sacked him
Simple as like ABC, 123

2008-08-31T07:56:00.000-07:00

Changed my blog skin
Because I just ruined my previous blog skin
So I had no choice but to change to a new one
Darn troublesome
But I kinda like my this new blog skin
Especially the big picture above
It projects an incomplete construction
Which originally means I'm incomplete without you
But I like that picture
So I've changed the meaning
Darn cool picture

Watched Wall-e during Friday
It's very nice and had some funny scenes
If you haven watch, I urge you to watch it
I rated 9/10 stars

My pathetic life routine
Wake up
Use computer
Eat
If no work go out
Sometimes stayed at home
Till dawn
Then sleep
That's my life

2008-08-20T00:25:00.000-07:00

Hey peoples!
It's been 3 weeks since my last post
Plenty of things happened
I went to Batam for 1 night
With Joycelyn, Jessica and Jia Jun
Eat, drink, play, shop and sleep
Had lots of fun
Next I was suspended from work for a week
Because they thought I just MIA from work
But I did inform Kevan our manager
He changed his number on that day
So he didn't received my message
And I got suspended for nothing
For that one week I've slack at home
Go for Akilili's Birthday Party
With my secondary school's clique
The following day
I've meet up Jeremy Meng Yik and Lionel
To play number ball at Timah
On Saturday,
I thought I was going to get sack
But with the help of Jessica
I've managed to stay
My outlet manager is fucked up
Next day, was called up to work
Because lack of staff
So I went and everyone
Say "I very long never see you"
I was like "I got suspended WTH?"
Work as normal
Not food abouyer but runner

Movie I've watched over the 3 weeks, only one

Hilarious movie
I've always love Singapore comedy movie
Rated 5/5 stars
Go catch it before you missed it

Thats all for now
Have fun
Cheers
Bye

2008-07-28T03:00:00.000-07:00

Hey guys,
Felt very free suddenly
So I decided to blog
First of all I'm working in bar in NYNY!
Next thing is I got fucked by Julius
He comment that I'm slow and etc.
Made me so demoralized
Early in the afternoon I got fucked
Felt the stress he gave
But overall still alright
Because there's Jessica guiding me
She taught me a lot of stuff
And there's still pretty much for me to learn and memorise
Had to memorise recipe for drinks
And the steps for the desserts
Waffle making was hell for me
I keep on failing for like 5-6 times?
Till now I also can't confirm the next waffle I make will be perfect
All I have to do is keep practicing
But how much waffle mix will I waste?
In order for me to be able to make the perfect waffles
Beats me too!
We'll see about that
My first priority is to memorise all the drinks first
So I can prepared it in seconds

No point dwelling
New target, objective and goal
I'm starting afresh
A brand new me

David Cook - Always Be My Baby

2008-07-23T02:27:00.000-07:00

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

2008-07-22T14:53:00.000-07:00

Was lazy to blog for the pass few days
So I'll blog out what I've done
Movies and work
Boring right?
That's the reasons why I hesitated to blog

Movies that I've watched with CK at lot one
We went for some kind of movie marathon
Watched two movies straight
Duration was two and a half hour per movie
Was a bit tired after watching
Because we watched from 9pm to around 2am?

Movie I've watched

The Dark Knight

Red Cliff

I rated both movies 7.5 to 8

The duration of Dark Knight was quite long for me because I didn't expect it would be that long. The storyline was like unpredictable. Great movie, I suggest everyone to go catch it. It's worth it!

For Red Cliff because the movie is rated PG instead of NC16 therefore the fighting scenes aren't that good. The movements are slower compared to NC16 ancient war and combat movies. Quite disappointed in this but some part of the movie is quite funny therefore I'm not disappointed after all. My favourite actor Tony Leung is starring in this movie.

Next day started work at 11am
Was damn shag
It's Sunday
Lots of people came and dine in NYNY
Be the food abouyer without fail
Was suppose to end my shift at 6pm
Then my outlet manager came and asked
"Matt, today work till what time?"
I replied
"6pm"
Then he ignored me for a while -.-"
He came again and asked
"You can extend?"
I replied willingly
"Sure"
He said
"Until what time?"
I told him I can work till closing
Then he said
"Never say earlier!"
I replied
"You now then ask?!"
After that he kept quiet
That day was busy serving food to many people
With the help of another food abouyer
Named Swee Yin
Poor her because I kept disturbing her
Too stress already being the food abouyer
Had to entertain myself by disturbing people
Haha!

Took some photos during non peak hour at work with,

Grace

Jasreel and Grace

Joycelyn

Nisa and Jessica

Love my workmates!
Can't bear to leave NYNY for NS
But I still don't know when I'm enlisting
Not so soon please

Oh it's 6.26am now and I'm blogging
Rise and shine everybody!
Nights Matthaeus.
=)

2008-07-18T05:40:00.000-07:00

Nothing much happened today
Slept late woke up late as usual
Start work at 6pm, was the misc runner today

Job of misc runner are
1- Push trolley in and out
2- Change the dustbin bag
3- Wipe cutleries and stock up
4- Refill water for water jugs
5- Send bill

What I did today as a misc runner
1- The 5 mentioned above
2- Help food abouyer (Serve food)
3- Play in bar

Was fun but exhausted because I was like running around
Asked to wash the chilli and ketchup bottles and refill the chilli
Spent an hour doing it till my back hurts
Thats briefly what I did during work today

Wasn't being stationed at Misc runner for quite some time
At first was quite reluctant but I realized something is different
The job of a Misc runner isn't that though as before
Memories recalled as usual
Sad and happy ones

Mentioned about wiping cutleries being part of a Misc runner job
While I was wiping cutleries after I pushed the trolley in
With a leftover Mini Cheese Fondue on top of the trolley
I was the dish washer auntie grab some and ate it
My mind was like thinking "Why are you doing this?"
She saw me looking at her and she smiled at me
Poor auntie with a tough job, I pity her
But can see she's nice because she offered me help when I was washing chilli and ketchup
But I didn't accept because my job was way to easy then hers
Even she can handle hers, why can't I?

It's 5.40am now
I shall end here
=)

2008-07-15T23:52:00.000-07:00

心里的悲伤头里的烦恼
统统在我脑海里徘徊。
努力过，式过也尝过
我办不到
忘记
天天都很忙
但再忙都不会忘了做一件事
一件非常重要的事

谢谢你的结束
冷觉里的残酷
谢谢你为我付出
但之前我感觉不出

一时的糊涂
踏错了一步
到达这地步
实在太恐怖
恐怖到
我永远记住
这难走的路

一个坚强的人
什么事都能忍
痛苦，哀伤或悲伤

天涯何处无方草
何必单恋一支花

2008-07-15T00:07:00.000-07:00

Boring mornings and pathetic nights
Rushing afternoons and busy evenings
The same routine everyday
I've nowhere to go
Without you

It's like stopping the time
For awhile
But when it resumes
Everything changes
My life, my plans, my mindset

Like a bullet going through my head
I couldn't think
Like a spear piercing through my chest
I couldn't breathe
Like I'm frozen in ice
I couldn't move

An angel in my eyes turns into a devil
An aeroplane in the sky crashes down the level
Turns into a unpredictable disaster
By then,
Things, peoples and matters
Changes
Act before it's too late
Till then everything is gone
In split seconds

Cherish and treasure
Before it turns into
Regrets and pains
That lives like a scar
In the heart
Even blood pumping out
Can't wash it away

2008-07-14T02:11:00.000-07:00

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

This song totally describle me - Bye Bye. 02/07/08 - 12/07/08 十天之前，我属于你，你属于我，十天之后我不属于你，你不属于我。我们都不一样变成了很陌生再也找不到拥抱的理由难免而为朋友。Wanted to post this long ago but I just stopped myself till I couldn't take it anymore. I'm going to burst. Now I totally knew how you felt. In that period of time everything I say is because of you. Only you make me say those heartfelt and hurtful stuff. Heartfelt stuff I really mean it. Hurtful stuff I don't mean it but I had no choice but to say those because I don't want to see you in that state too. Yes I'm the person landed you in it but if I didn't do it earlier things would be even worst. I'm not nothing, I'm a person with feelings just like everybody. Asked you not to wait is because I can't bear to see you wait but I can't rush myself too. It took a lot of courage for me to say those words out. Of course I don't feel good upon saying those words out but I had no choice because of you I said it. I didn't expressed myself therefore things became too late but I really can't take it anymore, please ignore me for now. I'm posting to make myself feel better. After that day past, everything's different, so unfamiliar till I don't even knew where I was. I know where I did wrong. I just overlooked something that cause me this. But well it's my fault after all, just have to be strong and take all those reflected damages. No regrets? I must be kidding. Deceived myself totally. Can't be helped. I just have to face it now or later. Numb myself with work? Ya right that's stupid because everything started from there. Whatever I do there reminds me of you. Images flashed through my mind. Lots of mistake I made during work. I freaking distracted! I just have to stop thinking. I did a great job from not crying even though it's hard on me. There's pros and cons in this situation. Cons are obvious so I don't even have to mention it. Pros are you're happier, even more love and care you received from this 2 I can let go. Just feels contented. You have my blessing, take care and bye bye.

Julius! I want go bar! let me in please =/

It's been days my hand still hurts after that stupid medical check-up. I doubt that person had his license for drawing people's blood. Hope something really is wrong with my arm so I could drop my PES. Sighs.

2008-07-12T03:17:00.000-07:00

I will remember you for all the things that we've gone through. There's so much I can say but words get in the way so we're not together, I will remember you.

2008-07-04T19:44:00.000-07:00

It's been terrible for the past few days for me. I had decisions to make. I made the wrong decision so I just have to correct it myself. It's hard to explain but I really hope you'll understand that it'll be harder for the both of us if we had to carry on. My choice was indeed selfish but the reasons behind make senses. I thought of consequences before making this decision. Still there's consequences behind everything, every decision you made and every path you took. I'm vexed. Give me some breathing space. Guilt all over my heart. I'm not worth it. Truth is I once loved you without noticing anything. I try to make things happen but I simply can't, blame me if you want to but to be honest with you I really can't. It's my fault not yours. The problem lies with me not you. You're right I took everything for granted. A thousand of apologies.

2008-06-25T23:40:00.000-07:00

I don't want history to repeat itself. I don't want to have another moments that I've regretted. Please be fair to me. I simply can't believe that it's going to be another so near yet so far for me. I can't bring it up because I know time is the obstacle. I'm tired but still I want to take it slow. Understand more. Sometimes, I wished I could take everything out from me but it would be to hassle for me. How I wish I could read minds and sense everything that's happening. Help me anyone? Working later so shall stopped now. Blog afterwards. Bye peeps.

2008-06-19T16:05:00.000-07:00

Well, work work work as usual. Sighs bad day. Felt kind of boring when I was appointed being a misc runner which the work is simply troublesome and dirty. The day before I wanted to be misc runner they gave me runner then the next day I don't want to be misc runner they appointed me as a misc runner. What the fuck? Misses the smiles of customers when I looked at them and smile they'll smile back. How cute. There's a lady with his boyfriend, I think? She looked at me then I looked at her and smiled, she smiled back at me. Then I was like oh my god first time a customer smiled back at me while I'm not serving them. So fun. The feeling is undescriblable. There's even a customer that tells me this place have it's standards when I served her then I smiled at her feeling so happy. But that was the day before.

你知道他心里在想什么吗？已经对爱情麻木的他竟然发现一件让他自己也惊讶的事。但他不知对方如何所想因为对方设么都不知道。依然的他也没打算让对方知道他心里对她的感觉。而且已开始他并不相信他会竟然喜欢上她但回头想想这些事情并不是在我们人的掌握中。那感觉是无法形容的。就这样他不知不觉地爱上了她。她到底知不知道他喜欢她呢？可能他的一举一动还没那么明显吧。还是她早已发现自己被爱了但假装不知因为不知如何翻印而且对方都还没对她告白所以只好假装什么都不知道等待告白才对他说出自己内心的感觉。还是只是他自己在一厢情愿，制作多情而以呢?

2008-06-14T04:54:00.000-07:00

Been very busy lately, so only now I had the time to post. Nothing much happened actually but I found out something that I really want to know myself. It's a good thing but for me it isn't. It's just I don't want myself to be in this state. It simply distracts me. Maybe can blame myself being selfish but I'm just afraid. Maybe afraid of the outcome but well, I rather things to be like now then making it more awkward. It'll be better. Trust me! I'm always right. Work as usual therefore leg pain as usual. Trying very hard to get used to it so no worries, it'll be fine. Deep down it isn't. Fuck this piece of shit! I hate this kind of feeling! I simply do! How how how? Any ideas what to do? I'm not going to tell anyone so no answers to that question. Sighs~ Please pull me out of this situation. I don't want history to repeat itself because I just have a feeling that it's going to happen again, blame me on my selfishness but I just do. Sorry.

2008-06-09T08:53:00.001-07:00

First day of work was awesome. Nice environment, friendly people. Joined a platoon too. Great! But thinking of my appeal to MINDEF makes me feel unhappy. I wonder how long I can stay in NYNY. If my appeal wasn't successful then I'll have to leave NYNY in about a month or so. God please let me have a successful deferment so I can study and work. Summary of what I did today at work. Hmm, was doing all the dirty work clearing plates, cups, spoons, forks, knife, unfinished food, bones and shells. Makes my hands stinks with the smell from different sauce. Pushed trolley filled with trash and used cups and plates in and out of the kitchen. By the way, did I mentioned I slipped and fall? Yes I did. Floor was damn slippery and so I just weeeeeee and boom. But it was during the closing when everyone was clearing and doing etc. Had some nice food after closing and Jimmy my manager talk so cock and everyone headed back. =)

Los Angeles, California

2008-06-02T01:30:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! I'm back from Los Angeles, California taken lots of pictures but don't worry pictures without my face are nicer. I love the weather, scenery, freedom, food, peoples and their essence there. So reluctant to come back. _|_ Singapore! America Rules! 99.99% migrating over there after stupid NS. It feels great when you're standing under the sun and you don't feel hot but chilling. Now Singapore is damn hot to me. Can't adapt and I'm super tired now because it's midnight in USA. I went to LA and a city named Fullerton stayed in Wyndham Hotel for a night and then took 4 hours of bus ride to Nevada, Las Vegas! My favourite place VEGAS! There situates 9 world largest hotel out of the 10 in the world. The other one is in Malaysia, Genting Highlands. Before reaching Vegas, the bus stopped for a break in Barstow city, Nevada. Bought plenty of stuffs there. Factory outlet of Coach, Calvin Klein, Reebok, Guess, Aldo, GAP and etc. Can't remember already. Stayed in Four Queens Hotel down there for 2 nights. Second day in Vegas whet to Grand Canyon took lots of photos of the Canyon. It's really beautiful. Had a Helicopter and boat ride around the Canyon. The view was awesome. Went back to LA again and went to Disneyland and Hollywood Universal Studios.

Sorry guys, all the pictures taken in Disneyland and Universal Studios are mixed up. There's picture of the Grand Canyon too.

Wyndham Hotel.

Reflection.

Much nicer than Singapore tree.

Look! Their restaurant are so nice. There's a bear holding a pan of pizza. How cute.

Cityloft.

Poolside of Wyndham Hotel.

Hard Rock Cafe.

They are flying without wings.

CINEMA! miss out a S behind because was walking while taking.

The Simpsons Ride in Universal Studio.

1, 2, 3! Smile~ and she did. =)

This is the stage of Waterworld. Their performance was awesome. Thumbs up!

Disneyland Mickey mouse.

Waterfalls.

Hollywood Towers.

The road of Disney. After 20 steps, you'll bang onto something.

Four Queens Hotel entrance.

Caesars Palace Hotel.

The Statue of Liberty.

This is New York New York Hotel with skyscrapers behind.

m&m's World in Vegas.

Pictures of the Grand Canyon taken on Land, Air and Lake. I'm serious.

That's an eagle down there. Amazing isn't it? It's not man-made but mother earth create this.

A closer look of the Chocolate flowing.

Look at this celling in Bellagio Hotel. A piece of this glass costs 100k and the whole celling costs MILLIONS!

It's made of chocolate except for the glass.

The picture I've always want to take the Chocolate Fountain in Bellagio Hotel.
This is a shot from the top flowing down.

A bottom shot of the Chocolate Fountain flowing. It's pretty.

Planet Hollywood Hotel in Vegas.

OH! I gone to Paris in France too. See got a shot of the Eiffel tower.

Birds in Bellagio Hotel.

Taken from the overhead bridge.

Waterfalls in Palazzo Hotel.

Nice Sky but it's fake - Inside Palazzo Hotel.

There, another shot of the man-made sky.

Wynn.

A closer look of The Capital Grille

Palazzo Hotel in Vegas

A beautiful water fountain outside Palazzo Hotel.

Treasure Island Hotel in Vegas.

One word, beautiful.

Wynn Hotel in Vegas.

An extension of Wynn Hotel, Encore but yet to be open.

A picture taken from outside of Wynn Hotel.

The Capital Grille, who's this guy? beats me too. He's from China.

What a bright sun.

Many many jackpot slots.

An opposite view from Wyndham hotel room.

The sun's setting.

Sun Rising.

It's only 5am plus and the sky is so bright already!

2008-05-23T03:33:00.000-07:00

Gone to L.A. Post when I'm back =)

2008-05-15T14:59:00.000-07:00

Primary Schoolmates Reunited!
Long time no see but why haven mati?
Just a random post with less words and more pictures.

2008-05-15T14:49:00.000-07:00

小姐，纸是包不住火的！为何不说出口呢？也许你有你的苦衷但说出口还是会舒服些。希望你成功！=)

2008-05-01T14:56:00.000-07:00

Yawns~ I'm rotting at home everyday while everybody is studying. I finally realized a life of a useless freak whereas there's nothing you could do but just be useless and stay at home. What a carefree life. It's boring me for sure. Even though I can sleep in the morning and wake up late but I rather be more active outside with new people and environment. Freaking deferment result is yet to be known but chances aren't high. I guess I'm going to serve NS soon. Can't run away also. Went out in the evening to play basketball with Jeremy, Derrick and Zong Sheng. Quite tired now. Nights peeps~

2008-04-24T00:43:00.000-07:00

It's so complicated, random, difficult and unpredictable. I don't understand but out of concern I want to know. I don't mind what happens, I really don't. I starting to feel the other way. Totally different from what I felt earlier. I don't want to. Please don't make me feel that way. Hiding isn't the way but proving is! I'm glad if it's really what I predicted because I know that's the one. I realized you did it for my own good. I really thank you. At first I don't understand why but now, I do because I realized something that many people around me did but I still felt that I should have understand it earlier from your words but nothing at all came. Nevertheless, I understand already so it's alright. You're out of my league. Friends are forever but love isn't. We'll be fine, I promise. It's a dream I had and now I'm awake. Rise and shine Matthaeus, it's time for a brand new start.

2008-04-21T06:56:00.000-07:00

Long time never post already. Had a lot of stuff to say but I just stopped myself from posting. Why? I don't know too. Well. I got some photos to post. Funny ones indeed.Having Enterprise Skills Lesson. Got so stress? LOL!

New pose for See No Evil. LOL!

New pose for Hear No Evil.

Stop acting like a rabbit. You don't look like one! But you look quite alike with Jack. Hahahaha.

Haha. We are promoting our comb! =)
So much for those very very ugly photos of her. Now it's time for another ugly one. Taaadaaa~

She's posing two Vs means that she doesn't agree with the word UGLY but adding two Vs infront of it and it becomes VERY VERY UGLY! Ya, I agree with you XiaoJun just don't want to hurt your feelings. HAHAHAHAHA! Whatever luh! Okie my photo show ended.

It's time to post about what happened recently, I'm withdrawing from school for sure because of some reasons. The environment there doesn't suits me. I'm heading towards MDIS if possible. If not, I'm going to NS. MINDEF don't allow me to defer my national service. Yes! they don't. FUCK THEM! It isn't fair for me because I'm born in January before my O levels was released therefore I can't enroll with MDIS because I don't have an O levels certificate. CMPB tell me tha I can't be deferred because there's a stupid rule saying you're already 18 and if you want to persue your studies on private schools, you have to be under the age of 18 and the course must commence before your birthday. What the fuck is this? Totally rubbish la! Hello! Rules 是死的，人是活的！Can't they think out of the box? Say what education is important. Talking cock only! What 10 years of education is compulsory. 活到老学到老? I think should change to 活到老NS到老 better. Had no choice but to go see the MP of Keat Hong, Mr Zagy. Now I'm awaiting for the outcome. I hope it's really the last time. =)

2008-04-16T22:24:00.000-07:00

All these precious moments
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That's holding me all night

I don't know how I found you
I'm thankful that I have
Now that I have a love so true
To hold, to keep, to share

In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world there is no place I'd rather be
You are my life, my soul, my girl
You through it all I know
That you've come to see
that you're the one till the end

All my friends around me
Say you'd be gone too soon
Baby I'm gonna make them see
We've found our way back home

In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world there is no place I'd rather be
You are my life, my soul, my girl
You through it all I know
That you've come to see
that you're the one till the end

We’ll always be till the end

2008-04-14T04:33:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone~ Today is the first day of school for me. Orientation was quite alright I guess. Met some new friends in school. From now on is no joking matter. I promise to work doubly hard and achieve much better in life. My feelings will remain the same. Thoughts will remain the same. I just hate to see this happening. Bringing me joy at first and dragging me down in the end. Maybe it's my fault, but I just hope things do get better. I think my class is going to be fun. Can't wait to have lesson soon. The classrooms and toilets sucks to the core. Classrooms is small. Toilet stinks like shit! Hopefully I'll manage to search for a clean toilet in school if not my bladder is going to burst for sure. =( Cheer up people! I need encouragement and motivations. Especially from you. I need it, I really do. Thank you, thank you. Never forget, never regret just catch. I'll take my chances and opportunities. Feels great today, thank you. Hope same thing goes to you. And yes Hui Qing, I still recognise you even thought you are in your specs. =) Take care all~ Cheers~

2008-04-10T10:31:00.001-07:00

Am I a very insensitive person? As in seriously can anyone tell me? I really don't know. I care about how people think about me. What's wrong with me? For what I said, I don't mean anything. I'm sorry. I do think twice before saying stuff alright. I only know I'm a sensitive person. In fact I'm very sensitive indeed. How could a sensitive person say some insensitive things? But if that's the case, it's my fault. I apologize. I hope you'll be alright because I really don't mean anything. For the past few days I finally realized that I'm still deceiving myself. Maybe I'm just escaping for that period of time. I just have to find something to handle this but my way of handling it is not right. But for the time being I still can't accept any other ways of handling. I'll deal with it someday. I know no one can help me but myself. I walk alone. It's hard to forget what had been remembered. Just like what done cannot be undone. But people just need time. With time, what's impossible will be possible. How long? Don't ask me, I don't even know. Yes, I'm still feeling the same. Nothing is changing for now. I know changing it requires millions of time. No one understand how I felt. Have you ever thought how I would feel? Maybe I'm too naive or in other words, dumb. I don't want it this way. Yes, I agree with you my friend, unpredictable is the right word to describle. I'm beaten, utterly beaten. I've lost.

2008-04-08T09:24:00.000-07:00

Hello everybody~ I'm here to bring my sizzling hot fellow ex-schoolmates into fame. Bringing you guys their photo. Give comments everybody. Firstly, It's Gan Sheau Jun. LOL!
Don't kill me alright. Haha. Hmm, Quite alright I think but hair a bit too long. Tsk tsk tsk. Don't think you poly can keep long hair hor! Still must cut understand? LOLOLOL!Up next, is Kho Yan Jing! Oh my god! Who walloped your face? Why is it so chubby red? Ya you know what I'm going to say so I shall keep it to myself. Let other comments alright? So people comment on her please. I'm speechless =x Thirdly, is Ong Yu Zhi Joshua. See his eyes like sleeping like that. Eh HELLO! UNCLE! Poly already hor! still sleeping? Wake up leh. Buay pai seh meh keep sleeping. Don't be like Yuan Chao leh. =X
Next is Tan Yuan Chao. Hmm. What can I comment? Quite normal, nothing special. =)
Lastly, Tan Jin Kang Markcus. Sheau Jun says you look fat. I think it's nice. =)

Guess I really nothing better to do. But my idea of blogging this came from Xiao Jun. Don't angry ar people. I mean nothing seriously. You know me right? =)) Cheers everybody~ Take care guys!

2008-04-07T07:31:00.000-07:00

I'm sick but nevertheless I still wants to make an entry. Feeling seriously horrible in the morning when I woke up. Then I went to see a doctor and fortunately I'm feeling a lot better now. Thanks Dr.Tan Tze Lee. He's very nice indeed. Everytime I take his medicine I'll recovers after a long rest. School started for most of my friends. Because it's Republic Polytechnic. The school I can't get in. =( Well, it's alright. I'll strive hard and get into Ngee Ann Polytechnic Business School. That's my main objective now. I don't want to be a useless person in the future so I just have to work hard now since it's still not too late. My course structure is good because all I'm interested in all. Except the sports and wellness segment. It's time to forget and start afresh now. It's a brand new environment, school and friends. But Matthaeus will still be Matthaeus. No doubt for sure. =) I'll miss everyone for all those times we had. Wishes everyone all the best in everything they do. =) I'm going to bed again now. Need to rest. Nights~

2008-04-03T12:14:00.001-07:00

Nothing much to talk about now. Today is the 4th of April. Happy 18th Birthday Jeremy! Finally same age as me already. For now, I'll keep things to myself. Blog it all out when I can't take it anymore. So awaits everybody. Nights~

2008-04-02T15:24:00.000-07:00

Interactions and more interactions. Is the situation still the same? What about the mindset and thinking? I don't understand whether to believe what was mentioned. I doubt myself. What's going on? Maybe once bitten twice shy. Am I contented? I don't know myself too. Oh great, now what? for heaven sake, someone please give me some advices and guide me. I'm lost again. Shit this piece of shit. Yawns~ I'm tired. My eyes are closing, head's spinning and I'm yawning. Well well, is there any nature that can take my course? what's nature? nature is crap. Totally off. I'm sensitive and I care. Every little thing means a lot to me. Little movements and actions causes. Stupid things make my day. Maybe I'm stupid. Yes, in fact I'm really stupid. If not i won't be blogging this rubbish. I awaits destiny. Where's my fate and faith? Gone, everything is gone. Nothing is left. I suppose I don't know what is gone and what's still left for me. Anybody know? I should have brain wash myself. Remove everything from this corrupted brain. I want a carefree life with what I want. But what I have is the other side of life and I don't get what I really wants. People may say I always get what I want but that's different. I rather not receive those stuff and in exchange, have what I really want. But too bad, I can't. Why? I don't know either. What a joke. Laugh people, laugh all you want. Is there anybody that really understand me? My family? Nope I don't have a family. I'm an orphan. Used to it already. Is like what's the point of having a family when you don't even talk to them. I'm a mute at home. They are simply irritating and unreasonable. No one will understand. Well, I've already made myself a plan. Shucks! Sighs. I'm tired, need a break now. Nights everybody.

2008-04-01T14:54:00.000-07:00

Thoughts and moments than I've been recalling. Chosen my path, Not the other path mentioned below, It's a new path that I'll walk myself. Whether I'm right or wrong is my choice. I choose it. Blame myself if I'm wrong. I'll be invisible without letting you know my presences. Sorry but I just can't be truthful because I don't want to screw things up again. I screwed lots of things. Shan't elaborate on what I had screwed. Personal stuff. Silence is all I want and need maybe sometimes little actions but keep it simple. Low profiling. Hoping that someday my presences will be felt. I don't want to be a failure. Sometimes I just don't know what I'm doing. As in seriously thinking I think I'm stupid. For some reasons I do stupid things. That's so totally irresponsible. Well maybe till now I still don;t know the meaning of being responsible. I never learn my lesson. Maybe I'm stubborn or it's just me. Yes me, Matthaeus, as simple as that. Sometimes it tends to be complicated. Dreams shattered, tears shedded and everything's gone in a flash. Can't even say goodbye. I don't see any chances and opportunities given to me. It's so unfair. In fact, nothing is fair in this world because in this world, people and heartless, realistic and cruel. I wonder how they have the sense of touch to feel things? Crap. Maybe they lost it somewhere. For heaven sake, find it back and feel for yourself as well as others. Then they will understand the feeling of being kind and warmhearted. Without this, they sucks. There's karma in this world. At first I don;t believe it but as times goes and for some reasons, I believed. Beware everybody, maybe someday karma will knock on your door and bring some darkness into your life. I experienced it. The feeling isn't good. So people, learn to cherish every little thing you have and think twice before hurting anyone. It's 6.16am now, rise and shine everybody. For me I'm off to bed now. Bye~

2008-03-31T14:39:00.000-07:00

Debate, debate and debates, arguments, arguments and arguments. Now what? It's over! all those shits and craps. Nothing will change the point of view, yes in fact nothing. Why things turn out this way? I don't understand, why? I wasn't left a choice. We could have remained silent but well our actions are obvious. So what we wanted was simple. An ending. No trust, no faith, no nothing. Totally screwed. Thanks anyway. Seperate ways will be better. Our path had long already been chosen. Speechless you may say but this are the consequences that you will never expect. But well, different people have different point of view but for me I'm not neutral in this. Sometimes you're alright but most of the times, you crossed the line and it pissed us off. Freak you. Treat it like you're captain jack from pirates of the carribbean but you're a noob that causes your ship to sank. As simple as that. I hate, I dislike, I disagree. A contradicting theory. Screw this. A person with ulterior motive. Maybe you are smart but 一山还比一山高. People have brains, especially people that knows you. It's so obvious. You're a scary person, makes me think twice before talking. You're the second dangerous person on Singapore. Mas Selamat Kastari is the first as we all know. The only difference is you're not running but he is. Change everything thing changed. Ruined everything. Good job! Hopeless, speechless and meaningless. Maybe you tried being a better person but as we can see I don't think it works and thanks for the effort. Anyway happy April's Fool Day everyone! Don't get punk today. I'm sure she will be very touched because you chosen her. Thank for the memories but it's fading. Bye~ A problem off my chest. I don't what she's thinking. Crazy girl. She's not my choice anyway. And regarding another person, cheer up, take care and smiles~ It's 6.10am now, guess I'm off to bed. Nights! Oh it's morning already. =X

2008-03-30T02:45:00.000-07:00

Hello everybody. I'm feeling rather empty now but nevertheless I think I'm happy. I just don't know what I'm thinking? Can anybody tell me what's love? Yeah I know, it's some complicated stuff that nobody can explain. Follow your heart, follow your soul, most importantly, have faith and be strong. I'm a weakling. I don't know maybe there's just consequences behind my choice but still the choice is still mine alone. Nobody can help me but myself. But I'm helpless simply lost. Helpless is too vague to be used. Lost is a much suitable word in this situation. I don't want to be guilty, I didn't mean to hurt anyone maybe I should remain alone forever. This sucks to the core. I'm a happy go lucky person, ain't I? Nope. Even if I'm happy I won't go lucky. I'm just a bad person. An evil and wicked person I suppose. Well I went to ACJC fun o rama yesterday, squeezed and walked many rounds around the school saw some familiar faces in there. Misses lots of stuffs, peoples and moments. All I can say is let nature take its course. All I wish is for everybody to be happy. The inspirations of mine triggers my mind to create sentimental phrases to awakes others. I'm not contented of what I have now. I know what I'm short of. Maybe I'll get it but is it the right one? Who knows? Even me myself don't know. But someday, I'll realize what I really wants and needs. Someday just someday and hopefully it's not too late by then. Best wishes to everybody~

2008-03-28T05:13:00.000-07:00

CHALET CHALET CHALET!!!

Hey! I'm back from chalet! hahaha! alright, chalet was fun! taken quite some photos from there. The place we went was Aloha Fairy Point Bungalow @ Changi. Quite deserted and spooky there. Well I won't say much, let the photos do the job ya? hahaha =)
Oh Old Changi Hospital was located near there and it was scary even though it is already left vacant for many years but you wouldn't know what's inside. =x Spooky stuff. During the first night when Jeremy and I were walking out to fetch Yuan Chao and Kai Peng to the chalet both of us walked pass Old Changi Hospital and I don't even dare to look up just in case I saw something. Although it was dark and you can't see anything but the streets were quiet and the wind were cold making me shivers but with the distractions of Jeremy's handphone, it makes me feels more normal then abnormal. Hmm. During the night everybody slept quite late I think but I stayed up the latest because I don't feel like sleeping so I browse the net using Yuan Chao's notebook till 6am then I turned in. Next day was the day to BBQ. We had indoor soccer inside the chalet! YES INDOOR! hahaha and it was fun! We play like we were crazy already only with the mindset of scoring. bodies flying around and Derrick suffered some casualties. He banged onto something. After that Meng Yik arrived and we continue playing soccer then, it was time to BBQ and everybody start to prepare for the BBQ except me. I watched drama in the comfortable air-conditioned room for hours. Watching and watching until 10 plus Jin min arrived then i went out to grab some food and crap along with Yan jing talking about some nonsense stuff. There's even a short video taken by Derrick.

Yup the above was the lame video taken by Derrick. Just look at Yan jing expression! OMG!
Look! Yuan Chao was OWNED by Kai Peng! LOL! How come you always fall asleep? HAHAHA! Kai peng is very happy to own him as we can see he's laughing happily! I wonder who took this photo?

Yan Jing Got emotional sometimes. Aww come on don't be sad! It's fun time! ahahahaha! =))

Okie now back to typing. hmm, oh oh I didn't get into RP as it was expected by me so it's okie. I'm heading to Bishan ITE for Accounting. Everybody is going everywhere. I guess the time we'll be able to spend together will be lesser. I'll remember the times I had with you guys to be true it was awesome. All 5 years in Swiss Cottage we spent together will always be in my heart. The times we had, the tears whoever shed, the nonsense we created, the crap we said and most importantly, the balls we played. I'll remember! Stay in touch everybody! We'll be meeting new friends too. Hope that everybody get nice new friends not like those fucked up ones. Should know what I'm talking about right? hahaha! For now, I wish everybody success in every little thing you do! All the best and stay in touch! Take care everybody

2008-03-24T08:03:00.000-07:00

Today was fine, I guess? Seeing people filled their hands with happiness makes me feels so alone. Cherish whatever you have people because it's wrong to take things for granted. Many thoughts ran through my head as I sees different things and different peoples. Good and bad memories I had but mostly is all good memories that i missed so much. I really misses those memories I had, how I wish I could go back but you wouldn't let me so I had no choice but to walk alone in this world filled with darkness and cruelness. It's never fair maybe it's all predestined. I wonder what I do to deserve this? Well but I still got to move on. I suppose tomorrow will be quite a busy and tiring day because it's chalet. Hope it could enlighten me because I have many happy friends with me therefore makes the the only emotional one. I had inspirations for writing poems today. Those all the top right hand side of my blog is what I written. Yes it's emotional but I'll write some happy poems when inspiration hits me again. But I bet it won't be that soon. So be patient guys. Today went to town with Xiao jun and Jeremy then we walked around in Ngee Ann City and Heren because Xiao jun was supposed to buy flip flops in New Urban Male for her brother so we just have to follow her saw 3 New Urban Male dickheads working down there. After buying the sky turns dark and clouds gets heavier and it rains so the three of us were stucked there because it's like raining cats and dogs outside. We headed back in and found ourselves a bench and we sat down and crap while waiting for Derrick to come meet us. Heard the song With You by Chris Brown from some random shop and thoughts starts running into my head but with the distractions of Jeremy I didn't think that much at that point of time. Well done Jeremy, you're humorous today which you always are but only today more humorous than me so I think you are great. Thanks buddy! I'm joking on the more humorous than me part because I'm lame not humorous but anyway Jeremy, you're great! After some time, Derrick arrived with an umbrella he bought in Takashimaya because he needed one to come over to Heren as it was raining outside. We then headed back to Wisma to had our dinner in Food Republic which the noodles I had sucks! Strongly advised not to eat the fish ball noodle stall! It sucks! Worse dinner ever! the noodle tasted like Blah~ Argh~ forget it. After that walked around Wisma went to The Project Shop and Xiao jun wanted to buy a notebook bag and for don't know what reasons she bought it but she bought it in Paragon The Project Shop but not the one in Wisma. Oh! I remembered the reason already! Because she wanted to take a look in Crumpler due to the psycho of Derrick trying to change her mind but eventually she is fated to buy the notebook bag in The Project Shop because Crumpler had already closed. Well, some things are fated and not meant to be. We saw gays in The Project Shop. One of them was working as a retailer and the other was sitting down waiting for his gay to knock off. I didn't noticed it after Jeremy mentioned about it. Xiao jun was laughing at the one waiting, who is sitting down and chewing on some food which Xiao jun thinks is very funny. Too bad I missed it if not, I would laugh also because the way she says is very funny. After that we all went back by train. Had a tiring day. Yawns~ No matter how tired I'm, I still, I still misses you.

2008-03-23T14:59:00.000-07:00

Here's a first post. Well nothing much actually, just suddenly felt like blogging so I created one too! =) I shall blog all my emotions up here from now on. Things weren't any better though. People would say "What's there to think?" but for me it's different, totally different. Maybe we just have a different point of view. Simple as that! Hmm, still thanks even though. It's really appreciated! =) Sighs! I just have to be strong about it. Oh ya! DAE results are coming soon but i doubt it'll be successful for me =( nah treat it as I never said. My confidence of getting in is zero! I need encouragements, I need someone to pull me up because I'm down, I've fallen once again. Any loving hands to come pick me up? Nah! I don't need any I think? Hmm, I learnt a new chinese phrase from Jia Jun on Saturday but I forgotton it already =x It's about being calm and steady when you're fallen and I think it's quite a meaningful phrase to remember just like what Niwen told me before. 天涯何处无方草，何必单恋一枝花？Makes sense isn't it? But guess what? It simply can't get into my head! Well, you can say I'm quite a stubborn person or maybe I think too much already because many things had been running in my head for the past few days and I'm darn tired right now. Today, went to catch SEMI PRO in westmall last night and the movie was still alright after that had my dinner around 9 plus at a nearby coffee shop and the western food stall aunty simply sucks! The rice is pathetic but the chicken taste nice! Thumbs up! But the aunty still SUCKS! It's already 6.20am but I just don't feel like sleeping. It's time to rise and shine and to go school or for other it's time for work! YAWNS~ Things will be fine I guess, just needs a little faith for myself =) Cheers everybody~